No I haven’t fallen off the face of the earth…life just sometimes has a way of passing me by so quickly I barely have time to stop and take a breath.
It’s been forever and a day it seems since my last post. Where do I begin? Life has been a roller coaster ride these past few months. sometimes feeling like I’m careening off the tracks and other times a slow cruise around a gentle bend. I suppose it’s really the same for most people…..
A quick catch up on where I’m at in life – work is well work – I love it and I hate it all at the same time. I’m mostly loving it now as I’m working on a couple of new and interesting special projects and events (yay me!). On the homefront the littles are still alive and kicking which some days is a miracle unto itself. That’s all I can say nicely about them for now….Momma has a semblance of a personal life….not much but a little.
I’m a little sad to say that things didn’t work out with Sweet P…but really in my head I knew they never would. The heart was another story but hey you have to live and learn. There was nothing dramatic or overly interesting about the end of the ‘relationship’ it just stopped being there….well no I’m lying there was an awfully emotional situation that I mistakenly thought had brought us closer. Reality check! It did not and really it was the catalyst to bring ‘us’ to an end. When I look back I do believe I imagined there was more to the whole ‘us’ thing than there ever really was……reality bites. It’s funny I don’t really miss the romantical bits we had (there really weren’t many) but I do wish we were still chatty mates as we did get along quite well.
As far as the littles go it seems as if the whole separation thing is not so easy for them to adjust to and they are firey balls of anger for the most part these days. This has lead to some pretty tough times and lots of hormonal teenage/pre-teenage angst. I really feel like a failure in this respect lately….whoever said parenting was easy lied…like totally lied. It’s not easy when there are two of you and it’s super tricky when there’s only one parent around most of the time. I can’t change the situation but I’m trying to be a better listener and hopefully a better momma.
We are testing out weekly family nights and will be starting some family counseling next month too. Family night numero uno was a hit with dinner and a movie so hopefully we can build on that. Counseling may be another story but we can all use an unbiased third perspective on our lives every now and again. and besides the littles requested it and I know I’m not a perfect mom (not even close!) so I’m looking forward to working through some of our issues.
With all this fun stuff at work and adventures with the littles you may be asking if I’ve had time for me….why yes I have! But let me take a breath and save that for the next post.